Showing posts with label self doubt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self doubt. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Argh.


Sometimes my job is not so much fun.
I've been obsessing over this series of paintings that I am suppose to send into the Enormous Tiny Art Show for the Nahcotta Gallery in just a couple of days...

I just can't seem to get them right.
I want to add a pretty thick layer of wax on top of them, and I just can't seem to get that wax to even out nicely.

They just don't look right to me. I think I just need to stop and walk away.
Michael says that they look fine, and I am sure they do...it's just that I've never really done this before, and I am afraid they don't look good.

I am just feeling a lot of self doubt today, and the last few days.
I would post them, but it's hard to explain what I am talking about with a photo. I think I am just worrying about it too much.

This is one of the hardest things about working alone. I have Michael, and I totally respect what he says, but sometimes I'd like a third, or fourth, or fifth opinion.

A group of people I went to PSU with have acquired a lovely warehouse space an industrial area of Portland. They have divided the space up into several studio spaces, and as far as I know there are three spaces left. I really hope there is still a space available for me when I get back home. I would love to have not only a studio space again, but also a place where I can go hang out with friends and make art. So my fingers are crossed...

Anyway, I gotta get back to work. I've gotta get these paintings and illustrations ready to be shipped out.

Hope everyone is having a good day!